We simply can NEVER know the degree of mind fuckery that everyone is dealing with daily

8/4/24

There is a lot going on in my life right now and it’s quite overwhelming. An ongoing battle with Dylan and school, I thought it was going well but ever since this kid hurt him and I found out he has been picking on him, he’s just completely changed as a person. He’s being cheeky, silly, not listening, swearing, hurting people etc and its SO hard to deal with because I am still very much stuck in survival mode and doing this all myself. Yes, I have a Partner now but he has a fulltime job, 3 kids and lives on the other side of the city, its not as thought he can help me with the day to day. Dylans had such huge changes with Dan passing and starting school in 9 months, obviously me meeting someone is also new especially as there’s more kids involved and 5 little personalities to contend with. Mum and Dad have left from overseas and not having them there on tap if I need help in anyway feels big. Alyssa is kinda starting to toilet train herself so that is big and full on and then of course new relationship, which is great obviously in many ways, but also given I am a grieving widow it is a MIND FUCK and that is putting it LIGHTLY. Not to mention the mindfuck that is figuring out how to even see each-other around kids and work and then figuring out how that will look like down the line, don’t get me wrong, I’m aware so many people blend families and all that but this is huge and very new to us and it can’t be rushed.