This journey is quite clearly my path, my lessons, my karma and where my greatest power and teachings will surface

11/10/23

At this point I am just laughing at how much life is throwing at me, after the last issue thrown at me, still not 100% being dealt with, boom, I get a call Saturday arvo that Alyssa’s Carer is giving me notice out of the blue that she can no longer care for Alyssa and I have 3 weeks to find a new Carer for her in a town that is so Family heavy there are usually 0 homebased care spaces and waitlists on most pre-schools (especially the good ones obvs). Honestly, after being initially shocked and calling her out (cos the reason she gave notice IS because she made an assumption without actually bothering to speak to me & then went behind my back and filled a space for Alyssa) I Laughed. I just laughed. Like WHAT MORE YOU GOT UNIVERSE? GO ON! PUSH ME HARDER WHY DON’T YOU?

Strangely though after I told her she shouldn’t have made assumptions and should have actually had a conversation with me then all this could have been avoided (as I would have confirmed I needed long-term care for Alyssa) as now she had put me in such a stressful and rushed situation, needing to find care in a field of waitlists and no options, quickly, strangely I felt calm, and I mean in my mind AND my body, I didn’t feel activated into fight or flight, for some reason I felt that everything was going to work out, it was going to be fine. I didn’t rush into doing anything.