The modern way of living just isn’t for me & – other people do NOT owe us anything. And that can be HARD to hear.

3/8/23

I went to meet a Counsellor today to see if It would benefit me and if we’d be a good fit. Short answer. NO. I realised in that moment that it probably won’t benefit me. I got nothing from the meeting and she just sat there looking sorry for me telling me how hard it must be. Well yeah, and this is helping me how? I already know it’s hard it’s my fucking life! I’ve got this platform I can pour my heart out too, I’ve got a few friends, my Parents and my Healer I can talk to, so I don’t really see how telling a stranger I’m grieving will help. I asked if she offered any practical solutions to help and she kinda just said yes, sometimes if IT comes up, I just follow your lead etc But, bro, I’ve been doing it all myself for the past 6 weeks since he passed away, clearly I’m managing to keep myself alive and functioning, the worst of the worst is over right? That first month was brutal and if I can get through that with only my awareness, tools, knowledge and rituals etc then I’m sure I can continue to support myself right?