The mind is a powerful ally & a powerful enemy & imma slay that bitch

6/5/24

I knew that life was a series of dualistic events, but fucking hell when you experience the darkest of dark and then some amazing light, the guilt comes in and it is a mindfuck bro. Like I feel so guilty for feeling happy, for feeling joy, for feeling love and loving, for looking forward to life, to the future, for being on the path to having what I always wanted – someone to grow old with. No, it’s not the person I thought it would be, but it doesn’t change the fact that this person is amazing. A fucking light in the depths of my darkness, and as I crawl out from the darkness slowly, being held by someone who loves me deeply, my stupid brain tries to guilt me. And I know why.