The Mind-fuck of Widowhood

9/12/23

One aspect of grief I am dealing with is having my brain just constantly be so PARALYSED with indecision and going back and forth about what’s the “right” thing for me to do. An insane rollercoaster of emotions that back and forth with such SHARP duality, I get whiplash and a fucking headache. But, guess what? NORMAL. My brain is still trying to comprehend what has happened the past year, unpack and deal with all the trauma and feelings and emotions, as well as the new reality I find myself in daily. There are so many things I’m having to deal with and literally ALL the possible thoughts and emotions come up and I get so overwhelmed then I just freeze and do nothing. Let’s take dating as an example: