The mind can be an incredible tool or a debilitating enemy on this life journey

15/10/23

After 3 long weeks with drama all over the show, I finally had an overnight break from the kids Saturday night. Just not having to do the dinner and bedtime rush and night wakes and early morning straight from 0-100, is SO NICE. I just go super SLOW, I do all the bigger self-care things I don’t get to, I even managed to have lunch with a friend and go to a Holistic event that was on. I’m super grateful for my Parents having the kids overnight once or twice a month, but honestly one night still isn’t enough, like with all the grief, stress, life stuff, lack of sleep, I am SO desperate for a proper few days to myself. Once I’ve got Alyssa settled at her new Carer (which by the way I haven’t heard from them about a start date yet, they were supposed to get back to me by Friday and didn’t), I want to go away for a few days, ideally to Queenstown, cos its so beautiful, I can just walk around everywhere and my god do I crave it bad! I think we can all agree this past year has been fucking HELL, so wanting a few days break is so understandable. I’m the type of person who needs time alone to refuel and reset and I am just not getting that being a Widow to two young kids.