The Clock is Ticking

9/3/23

I’m so tired. Kids are so intuitive, I really think Dylan is heavily picking up that Dan is really sick. We take turns sleeping out in the lounge, so the other can get uninterrupted sleep, and the person in the lounge gets the kids if they wake. We had got to a point where Alyssa slept through, or if she did wake she put herself back to sleep, and Dylan was waking once and needed a quick re-settle. But for some reason he’s waking at least 3 times a night, and refusing to stay in his bed for Dan, he will for me, but not Dan. It’s like he wants to be close to him? I’m not sure what to do, because Dan NEEDS sleep. I mean so do I, especially as if he gets up 3 or 4 times I get so anxious that he’s gonna get back up again I can’t get back to sleep. Ugh. Part of me is like be consistent and keep putting him back to bed, Another part is like maybe Dan should sleep in his room and then they’ll both get a good sleep? I don’t know. The joys of parenting young kids.

It's been an interesting few weeks, we received Dans stool test results back, we are still awaiting a heavy metals test. He is SO fatigued and tired everyday to the point he can barely walk to the fridge. It’s so fucking hard to hold space for that and be strong and not freak out.