We have enjoyed a good almost week with Dan’s pain being quite manageable and then BOOM yesterday he’s in more pain again. Fuck man, like can we get a longer break than less than a week? He’s decided to fast today with just fresh cold-pressed juice and Kangen Water. Just give his body a wee reset and break. It’s been a stonking hot long weekend with the kids, so back to more time now for him to rest, go to appointments for healing modalities and do things at home.
We have to send away a hair test today which, alongside the poo test will give us more of an idea of what else is going on inside his body, other than Cancer, so we can tackle everything simultaneously. We have a couple of modalities left we can try for Dan, then we need to narrow it down to just a few for him to do, as we simply cannot afford to do them all – I mean being honest we can’t afford to do ANY, WINZ is barely covering our basic bills, rent, internet, food etc let alone the modalities and supplements over top. Our Give a little has totally stalled and the money is almost gone as after buying flights to the UK, travel insurance, and our own Kangen water ioniser (cos this is going to be a LONG-TERM gamechanger for not just Dan’s health but mine and the kids – water matters!) we’re getting down to 0 again.
I’m trying not to stress about it and trust that money will flow, whether from my business or donations, cos realistically, we are looking at several hundred dollars a month ONGOING for who knows how long for supplements and modalities to heal Dan’s body from cancer.
Far out, like having to rely on the help and support from other people that we have to is a whole new experience of surrender and letting go of judgement, any proudness etc.
Anyway, i’m at a café working as I wanted to give Dan space to just rest quietly or do whatever he wants. I feel a bit of pressure to get flowing clients in my biz, but know that I just cant actually do that right now. I am enjoying getting back into work again though, hosting free things in my private group, connecting with like-minded people locally and getting back into sessions with the clients I had to put on hold when Dan was diagnosed.
Hopefully when I get home Dan’s feeling ok, I know he’s really looking forward to the UK trip and that is very powerful for him right now.