I’m done with everything happens for a reason, but I truly believe there are lessons we can learn from everything that happens to us to grow.

7/9/23

I’ve always been the black sheep of my Family. Basically my life has looked like not feeling like I fit in with my own family because we think/act and live so differently, as well as not fitting into the standard boxes of the majority of society. I’ve had to accept the fact that I feel like an only child, despite having a Brother. He doesn’t live nearby, he doesn’t call or text, when he visits Mum and Dad/comes down for work he is good with he kids, but barely talks to me, he doesn’t want to hug me (although he let me without flinching when Dan passed) he deleted me off facebook and wont accept my friend request, it’s sad, but it’s his choice, will I ever understand it? No. Does he love me? In his own way I know he does, and I know if I asked for help or truly needed him, he’d help me. Is it how I’d like my relationship to be with my only sibling? Fuck no.