I need to keep showing up fully as my authentic self, doing what intuitively feels right
22/2/24
I feel a bit calmer today. I was busy yesterday getting groceries, and cleaning the house for todays house inspection, I didn’t get time to kind of chill and have some me time. After I dropped the kids today I ensured the house was clean, did some laundry, and a few bits and bobs then decided I wanted to take myself out for lunch, grateful for the freedom to do this while I navigate this grief. Bedtime last-night was shit, but no loosing a child thank fuck, but we were all in tears again, by that time of the day i’m so tired and desperate for time to myself for an hour or so before I go to bed. The kids are just so tired after school and preschool, I try my best to get them organised at a decent time so bedtime doesn’t run too late as the later it gets the more tired they are and more likely to loose it and then get to bed ever later. A viscous cycle! I was talking to another widow and this journey (much like life) is just riding the wave of where we are at on each given day, feeling low, sad, no energy? Rest, no expectations, only do what’s necessary, feeling hopefully, positive, high energy? Get shit done, but it all comes down to allowing yourself to be where you’re at and rolling with that. No forcing, no faking, just owning where you are and showing up with love for yourself. Shift and adapt yourself depending on what you have that day - work/kids/meetings/errands etc
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