I don’t want to look back on this time and say to myself I pushed myself too hard, I burnt myself out trying to keep up with my own ridiculously high expectations
12/12/23
Today is my Dads 67th Birthday. Its not lost on me that Dan got one day of being 37. I’m 38, he’s been a Father for almost 40 years between my brother and I and Dan got 4 years. Like wtf?
I had a chilled day yesterday getting settled back in at home, doing the washing, tidying the house, food prep for the kids lunchboxes ahead, prepped dinner etc felt chilled and I even did my movement went for a walk, did some yoga and had a lovely reunion and arvo with the kids, it was so sweet they were so happy to see me and Dylan kept saying I love you and I missed you, warmed my heart. However then bedtime it went down hill, Alyssa was a knob at bed time then Dylan got super bad separation anxiety at bed time, he was crying and saying he didn’t want me to go. Crying saying he misses me when im not with him. I did my best to calm him down, he’s even started getting back up again after I put him to bed which he’s never done so I know its bad ☹ He also said something he’s never said before – i’m scared you wont love me when you’re not with me.
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