I desperately want my nervous system to be more regulated

11/1/24

I’m so exhausted. Its been 3 weeks of hell to be honest. I’ve just dropped the kids at Mum and Dads & I can barely function I’m so tired, but its only 230pm. It’s also an insanely gorgeous 30 degree summer day. But, I’ve got no-one to hang out with, when I get this kid free time I often think, omg I can actually DO something, I could go to an event, a gig, I could go out for dinner, lunch, I could be social and chat with friends. Nope. I mean I can’t just message my friends who all have kids at 2pm and be like, hey wanna hang? They’ll be doing hot summer day shit with their little families, like I would be if Dan was here. It’s lonely as fuck I tell you. Don’t get me wrong, I love my alone time and being this tired I’m probably not much company, but sometimes I just wish I could actually spend some kid free time with a quality person, or at least a good mate. I catchup with mates every now and again, but its always tricky trying to balance everyones schedules and kids. Right now, i’m alone a lot, i’m single and a solo Mother. That’s just my life right now. I’m not gonna fight against it, ill have a little whinge, then I’ll just get on with my day. So right now, i’m having a cold drink in a café and typing this, then i’m going to grab a few things from the supermarket and head home for some selfcare.