30/12/22
It’s been nice going slow and not having endless appointments this past week. Everywhere is closed over the holidays and we took it as a sign to go slow and literally just take every day as it comes. Dan couldn’t do, well, anything up until boxing day anyway. It’s given us a chance to slow our nervous systems down, be very present and just take a moment to figure out what we want to do, as everything is SO overwhelming, and we’ve been rushing things. There’s time to figure out the best route for us.
Dan tried a few castor oil packs which seemed to help his pain and he felt less bloated and inflamed after his surgery. He also tried an enema at home yesterday, I mean, he wasn’t super keen on it, but it’s meant to be amazing and we can do it over and over again at home. Anywho, he felt better afterwards and amazingly he didn’t need pain killers for 12 hours after, which is huge!
Seriously the fact that two things he can do easily at home, whenever he wants are impacting him that well, is nothing short of incredible. It really gives us a lot of hope, and drive to continue figuring things out OUR way, holistically.
We’ve been trying to bring more joy into our day, less rush, talking about emotions and past traumas etc Dan has started another fast, this time just water, he’s on day 4, he’ll probably go for 7 days, then light food for 7, then 2 week fast, then light food for two weeks, then 3 weeks and so on, up until 4 weeks, or when his intuition tells him to stop. This journey is about really trusting your intuition, Dan needs to connect with his body and find his own way. I’m so glad he is feeling a bit better, as it takes a bit of pressure off me as he can at least do a bit with the kids etc but we are both mindful of him not pushing himself.
Next week will be much the same, after another long weekend focusing on the kids. The longer we’re away from the medical system with its pressure and fear and anxiety, and frankly depressing shit, the better we feel and the more empowered we feel to do this our way.