Focus on your life my friend, cos you are the one who has to live it and be ok with it.

14/01/24

So, I downloaded a dating app. Yep. And I know that everyone will have some kind of opinion on it. But as usual, I’ll share MY truth. I’ll repeat which I said awhile ago, in 6 days it’ll be 7 months since Dan passed, now imagine if we’d broken up, everyone would surely be telling me to “get back out there” yet if someone passes away, no matter when it is it’s always “too soon”. Like do you think I’ve stopped grieving? NO. Do you think I’ve stopped loving him? NO. But guys, he’s DEAD, while I could get back with an ex, there is no getting back with Dan, as much as I wish I could. Downloading a dating app doesn’t mean shit. I haven’t done anything yet. As you can imagine, it brings up A LOT of feelings and emotions and is making me feel all kinds of conflicted shit. Guilt, like i’m cheating, weird, overwhelmed, am I ready for this? Are there any guys out there that are decent and don’t post pictures of themselves shirtless, drinking or with dead fish?