22/12/22
Dans laparoscopy didn’t go as we’d hoped. The disease has spread – a lot. So much so, that they wont do any surgery until we can reduce it down, and of course, the only offer they have for that is chemo. I’ve been feeling a bit deflated and setback, and also Dan has been in immense pain since the procedure and is basically unable to help me much at all with the kids and household stuff, so I’m running around like a headless chicken, feeling pressure, constantly behind in everything housework, also desperately needing to do NOTHING or something nice for myself but right now, no time too.
No presents wrapped. House is a mess. But the good news is we got given a kangen water filter system to use for 5 weeks through a mate. Legend. We’re going to look more into it but it sounds amazing, albeit expensive af to buy, but potentially really fucking worth it as we drink tons of water, we use it to cook, bake etc. Another friend is letting me borrow her cold pressed juicer for a week whiles shes on holiday and im trying to figure out the best one to buy at the best price as we are on a strict budget and need to invest wisely, as some things that may be super beneficial to invest in are thousands of $. So, if you are reading this and haven’t shared our give a little or donated anything – please, please do, it all adds up, it all helps and it is making Dan healthier everyday.
We went to the Brilin centre a functional medicine centre and that was a breath of fresh air compared to the fucking hospital. He did a treatment with a light machine that’s supposed to be better than red light. He did a live blood analysis and another test which tests for basically everything. The meeting was 2.5 hours and we barely scratched the surface, but he did speak about a lot of things we are already doing that are super key like BELIEVING he can get well, grounding, dealing with emotional pain from the past, diet etc etc
We want to speak to one or two more people, before then deciding our next steps, in the mean time, dans simply recovering from surgery (imagine the recovery for major surgery?!!) and eating clean, drinking kangen water, juicing, and taking supplements. We have a home enema kit, we have castor oil ready to do castor oil packs for detoxing, but not till hes healed more from this surgery. I want to do fuck all this weekend but go to mum and dads, let them entertain the kids and eat delicious healthy food, and get lots of nature.
I still cant believe this is happening and this is our life right now, but it is and one step at a time is what needs to be done right now.