Deep Surrender
5/1/23
Things have been very up and down, Dans pain has been up and down and new pains too, which send him into a bit of a panic – as me, but I do my best to be the one to stay calm and tell him it’s just his body detoxing and adjusting,. The body can regress before it gets better. Just like when I gave birth the second time without any pain killers or interventions – I had to trust my body could do it and it was FUCKING HARD, and I most definitely needed support! He’s very skinny now, and that’s also something that society deems as not good when someone is sick, but again, trusting his body will regulate and put weight back on when its ready.
Overall though he’s reduced his painkiller intake to around 15-17 hours now!! That is amazing within itself. But this is a long journey. We are still taking each day as it comes, and trying to listen to his body, do things they he enjoys – live a fulfilled and authentic life, while eating epic wholefoods and taking some supplements, until we get more of a concrete plan for that.
He hasn’t been doing much in the way of modalities as most places have been closed, so we’ve just been walking and doing a bit of meditating and grounding. He’s got a few appointments booked for next week, osteo for his back as that’s still an issue and our energy healer, as well as meeting a naturopathic oncologist – man I hope we just click with him and he can support us with everything we need!
It takes so much time to meet people, try different modalities (of which we’ve barely scratched the surface!) but alas, patience mofos, this is not a journey to be rushed!!
Dans body took possibly decades to create this Cancer, it will take some time to heal it. We often leave our bodies up to others, so-called professionals to tell us what to do, to treat the body like some sort of machine, yet the wisest teacher is the body itself Basically learning to actually listen to and trust it, after ignoring it and thinking others know whats best for it. (i know if you’re ready this you know i know medical help has it’s place, this goes without saying and i won’t repeat this!).
Deep trust, deep faith, deep patience, deep surrender.