845am on day one of my new life

21/6/23

I think there will be A LOT more blogposts on here now, perhaps even daily, like a diary. I need some kind of outlet to work through this pain, these emotions. I managed to sleep a good chunk at the hotel solidly from about 10pm-4am, then I woke and it all came flooding back. I managed to get back to sleep after awhile then woke just after 8am. I just feel heavy. Heavy with grief, and frankly depressed. Understandably so.

I have to tell my kids they no longer have a daddy today, and hopefully I can parent them ok through this grief, i’m sure I will step up when I see them as they are my main reason for looking after myself so I can look after them.